I haven’t updated in a while and I apologize. There has been a lot running through my mind. This week, on Monday, I saw the neuropsychologist and a lot of what he said didn’t resonate with me and it made me feel depressed and hopeless. He said that my left brain had been affected and that the language and spatial capabilities are below average. He also told me that my driving capabilities might have been affected during these last two seizures which they weren’t. How do I know? I had got really upset with my father and took my car out up the street, nothing changed. I know that he knows what he is talking about, but I feel that I can prove these people wrong. I feel that I am back in elementary school where the teachers are calling me dumb. And I know this guy isn’t, but that’s how I feel.
On top of this, I got sick from my father the other day. Today, my nephew comes over for the night, which is going to be nice. It has been a long while since we have had him over. We just get to see him two times a week. So it’s nice to have him over, but I have to be careful with being sick still. I’m better, but it’s lingering.
Lately, I honestly have felt trapped in my feelings of depression and anger and sadness. I just don’t know what to do. I was finally able to draw again. Which it has been months. I’m getting excited about a few things, but I just still feel caught. I hate feeling this way and I hope I will get out of it soon. Anyway, that is what is going on now.