Merry Summer Solstice (aka Litha or Midsummer)! The Wheel of the Year is turning and I can’t believe it is already halfway through the year. Today’s the longest day of the year and pretty soon Autumn will be upon us. I will be glad for that. I hope you have a good day.
Well I can tell you that my day was busy as frigging heck. Today I had an endocrinologist appointment at 10:25 in the morning. I didn’t see her till about 11:20. We discussed a lot, especially the blood levels, creating a health binder to put my notes in, how I was feeling and things like that. So it was about 12:00 when we left and then I went to DQ with my dad and we got something to eat. I wanted to get home to lay back down, but tested my left side to see if it was still in pain and it was. So there and made my poor dad take me to the urgent care dentistry. This is where all the dental students work with their professors. It took and hour and a half. I’m sure he was not happy, but by going to the urgent care dentistry, you cut your price in half. So I saw a student and a professor. Both were nice. The professor told me that my pain was stimulating through stress and my neck. The student also found one of my lymph nodes enlarged a bit. Both also flossed my back teeth where I was having pain and found food in it. I said, ‘Well that’s embarrassing,’ and the professor just laughed and was really nice and gave me really good advice. I’ve also got an appointment for initial consultation to see a someone to do a cleaning in August, which will be much cheaper option than regular dentists.
I also decided to delete my Weight Watchers account. I didn’t feel like it was helping and I was wasting money. I am going to reread the Paleo diet and see if it is the right diet for me. I am also going to do some soul-searching and really look deep inside of myself. Over-eating is a manifestation of something else. I have to find out what mine is. Anyway that’s my thoughts for now.
Ugh! I’m still feeling like crap with this whole cold issue, though it seems to almost be wiped out. My nose is still running like hell. Anyway, now I’m having trouble with my teeth. Especially on the left side there is a tooth that is hurting me bad. I don’t know why. It just seemed to start all the sudden. So I might be seeing the dentist tomorrow. Ugh. Why me?
Happy Father’s Day to all those great fathers out there and thank you for all you do! I know I wouldn’t be here without my father. He loves me and takes care of me and I appreciate him so much for that. So tell your fathers that you love them. Hug and kiss them, for you don’t know how long you have left with them.
I haven’t updated in a while and I apologize. There has been a lot running through my mind. This week, on Monday, I saw the neuropsychologist and a lot of what he said didn’t resonate with me and it made me feel depressed and hopeless. He said that my left brain had been affected and that the language and spatial capabilities are below average. He also told me that my driving capabilities might have been affected during these last two seizures which they weren’t. How do I know? I had got really upset with my father and took my car out up the street, nothing changed. I know that he knows what he is talking about, but I feel that I can prove these people wrong. I feel that I am back in elementary school where the teachers are calling me dumb. And I know this guy isn’t, but that’s how I feel.
On top of this, I got sick from my father the other day. Today, my nephew comes over for the night, which is going to be nice. It has been a long while since we have had him over. We just get to see him two times a week. So it’s nice to have him over, but I have to be careful with being sick still. I’m better, but it’s lingering.
Lately, I honestly have felt trapped in my feelings of depression and anger and sadness. I just don’t know what to do. I was finally able to draw again. Which it has been months. I’m getting excited about a few things, but I just still feel caught. I hate feeling this way and I hope I will get out of it soon. Anyway, that is what is going on now.
So I ended up going to the E.R. on Saturday. They ended up giving me I.V. fluids and a strong medicine for nausea which pretty much kicked it out, but I am still having some pain. Not as much thank goodness. The hospital did send me home with some information on what might set off a migraine. Some of the foods include: chocolate, yogurt, cheese (especially aged). What the hell man? I’ve been eating chocolate yogurt from Yoplait, so I guess that will have to be stopped for a while. Ya’ll aren’t going to stop me from eating cheese, but I do need to reduce my intake. I just wonder, what doesn’t set off a migraine? Goodness. Maybe I caused it. I was doing so good before it came on. The daiths were working, and still are. This is crazy. Gotta do some research.
I haven’t been active. This is mainly because there has been a lot going on in my life. Outside and inside factors, if you get my meaning. Well last Saturday was my birthday. I’m 35 now. Sunday, I woke up with a very bad headache. Bad enough that I had to put an ice pack on. This headache, or migraine, as I think it is, has not gone away since then. I have tried a variety of medicines and my doctor sent me in a new one and even that hasn’t worked. So I’m teetering on the edge of whether to go to the E.R. I’m going to give it one more night. I mean it’s been going on since Sunday! I have my limits you know! I just don’t know what to do about this monster. We’ll see.